I looked through my old pinterest hair boards and I realize that I've had some variation of short to mid-length wavy hair for years now. And I don't want to return to it.
I hate the way I look with straight hair so it seems my only option is to go short. Not a bob mind you, but boyish short hair. So that my hair can dry in 10 minutes and I can go to sleep right after I shower instead of waiting hours for it to dry. So I can just finger mousse or gel through it and run out the door. So that I can stop coloring my hair and buying special shampoos and conditioners.
This is ideally. Everyone else says that short hair is harder to maintain than long. And I am known to be lazy about styling my hair. And then there is the time that I did have a mid-length pixie in high school and all the girls said it was cute, while the boys shook their heads and asked me why I did it. My parents frequently warn me about that year and say not to go short ever again.
My first year of college, I went in with my awkward growing-hair-out phase. Not only am I shy, but my hair did not help. It seems like I had shot myself in the foot at a very crucial time in life.
To go short now seems sort of like suicide. If the first time I had handicapped myself by playing with the gun out of curiosity. This time, I'm putting the barrel in my own mouth and pulling the trigger. Maybe I will regret it. But I feel the need to challenge myself somehow. It's easy to feel confident behind good hair. The question is will I still feel beautiful without it?
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