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At lunch today, we played personality quizzes.

In a table full of peaceful and deep blues and greens, I chose yellow.  And described it as bright, warm, and playful.

While most everyone chose the water element, I chose fire.  For it renews, offers light, and is warm.

When told to imagine being in a white room by myself with no windows or door and no explanation, I said that I'd be curious.  Naturally, I'd wonder, "Why am I here?"  Then, I'd be excited because my mind immediately thought of the scene in The Matrix where columns rush past and disappear.  And you know something strange and life-altering will happen.  No one could see me in that place so I'd run around like a fool and sing until my throat hurt.  I'd assume no one would know where I was.  I'd feel peaceful for this reason and just ease into sleep along the edge of one of the walls.

What did this reveal about me?

Snip Snip Shoot

Fall's approaching and I itch for change.  This year, I decided that I wanted to try red.  And finally grow my hair out long.  And be gloriously toasty tan.  Well, I did it.  And now I'm bored.  The tips of my hair are fried and my perm unraveling and who cares about being pretty anymore?  I don't have anymore weddings to go to this year.

I looked through my old pinterest hair boards and I realize that I've had some variation of short to mid-length wavy hair for years now.  And I don't want to return to it.

Invisibility

If you could have any superpower, what would you choose?

Lots of people say invisibility, but I would never wish for such a thing.

love love love

None of us knows how to love

[Exhibit A]
This is how i knew he loved me
he paid for everything so that i didn't have to worry
about money.  ever.
sent me to college.  bought me a car.
and said i could be whoever i wanted to be
before he left us all.
packed up and said goodbye
leaving us in tears.  begging.
but out the door he went.
i can't even remember if this really happened.
it was 2008.
payments still come in.
This is how i know he loves me